Unspoken Labyrinth

I am lost in my head

with novels of unspoken thought

Everything to say but nothing to write

Nothing to let others know

Imagine this

You're walking around and you see these walls 

They're covered from top to bottom

Left to right

Beautiful lyrics

Beautiful script

Carefully engraved on each inch of this wall

You continue to read and walk 

Until you notice you're lost

Lost in a never-ending labyrinth of words,

Of stories, of songs, of poems

Beautiful yet deadly, this mind you're stuck in

You continue to walk to find a scary place

Covered in pain and sorrow

With a million little things

That nobody notices that cry out

Cry out for help

Yet nobody lends a hand

Depression and anxiety have taken over this zone

Leaving nothing but darkness and despair

With everything that comes in contact with it

But it disguises itself

With smiles and laughter

Making everyone around believe that

Everything is alright

Until they dig deeper

And see the true horror of the labyrinth

I find a broken hearted,

Misunderstanding little girl

Who just wants her mama to come

And hold her again

To be called baby girl and little cheerleader

By the most amazing woman in the world

Little does she know is that

That woman is never coming back

By choice not against her will

She never fought

Never begged

Just walked away and never looked back

There's a library filled

With equations and textbooks and essays

Each assignment continuing to dissect my brain

Long after it's done and over with

Just to find out what the final velocity of a ball could possibly be

Who in the world needs to know that??

Why doesn't the ball just fall?

Who knows?

I definitely do not

I continue my journey and find myself,

A princess locked in a tower

Abandoned by everyone except her creations

Nobody to rely on except them

I am trapped here

Trapped in my labyrinth that I created for myself

I am held up inside

Wishing someone would understand for once

Just wishing that wishes came true

I built a safe house

Hoping it would protect me

I would be safe from everyone 

Except my worst enemy

And I believe that's the problem

I am my own worst enemy

And my mind is a prison

Every negative thought followed me into my safe house

So I am never alone

But I am

Aren't I?