UNSPOKEN WORDS

I longed to always see your face beside me as the night gets lost in the raising sun Yet; I lost time looking at the clock watching seconds of chances ebbing away I locked my impotent feelings inside for I thought you wouldn't conceive what I would say Now; I loathe the thought of you lost in thoughts thinking of another man I listen to lamentations of unspoken words For; I left a thousand letters burning yet I sent you a thousand empty envelopes I let my assiduity shift like a shooting star from a twinkle of a broken telescope Now; I live in a house full of silence, echoes and geckos, a cage of birds I laugh, sometimes cry, at the irony of my own masculinity For; I least expected myself to be afraid of the unknown I lifted the fears of twin shadows that my own mind cloned So; I look at the glass of my Window learning from its fragility I loaded fear within my chest that wasn't supposed to be carried For; I lacked the confidence to look you in your eyes I leashed my painful truths for mere flattering lies Sadly; I last heard from you two days before you got married I loved you even before the fall of my crush on you When; I led my courage to the grave where it now resides I lied only to hide my shy looking truth inside Now; I light my mind on fire trying to burn the thoughts of you