Until it happens to you

People say get over it, People say it will get better, But only people who have been through it understand, That's why I am writing this letter. This isn't easy to live through, The constant wanting, Or wishing to forget, But the memories are haunting. No one knows the pain I go through everyday, The memories that remain, But the man that did it to me Doesn't deserve the fame. I am sure he wouldn't regret anything Probably deny it all, But even then, It's me who will continue to fall. Worrying he will do it to someone else Or come back But telling someone won't help And it's help that I lack. I refuse to tell anyone the full story Because there is nothing they can do So I am stuck And can never get through. It wasn't just once He did it a lot, And growing up I didn't know it was wrong So I never fought. It was something I thought your dad was supposed to do And that it was the way he showed he cared, But no one ever warned me So I was never prepared. I stay silent when others talk about their experience While I still hurt over mine, Everyone says it wasn't that bad So I continuously say I am fine. But I am not.... When will I be?