Until The Very End
He was twenty five
He'd been seeing
Through the bottom
Of a bottle
Since she could remember
Locked
In a December
That didn't seem to end
Try all he wanted
He couldn't pretend
He didn't have it in him
To bend
She never knew
Anything
But cold and cool
Numb from the bone down
She felt nothing real
Stopped praying
Got sick
Of hearing nothing back
She turned her back
On herself
Turned into someone
She hated
To look at in the mirror
She was seeing the world
Through damaged lenses
They broke
Every defense
She ever built
I love you
He said to her
Over the phone
She felt his pain
They had never felt so alone
He said
I'm scared
I won't ever change
I want to be better
For you
But I can't see the bottom
Of this ocean
And I can't get my feet
Beneath me
She said
I love you too
But I messed up bad
I wish I was like you
I wish
I could be better for you too
I did
Everything I could do
But the wound
They just won't heal like they used to
And I've been crying
Ever since
Not even the love
Of a good man
Can save me
Hang up the phone
It's become so cold
Here in this house all alone
Burn old photos
They aren't real anymore
Don't knock at my door
Don't come around
This ghost town
You won't find me
Don't believe
In the lies
They tell you
Shut your ears and eyes
You can't reach me
And I don't want you to
If you can get out
Save yourself
Don't come back for me
You won't like
What you see
Or find
Don't turn around that car
Get as far
As you can
Until you run out of gas
Until you can't feel it anymore
Just go
Until you don't feel no more
Just know
I listened to your voicemail
Over and over
That night
I must've held that phone
So damn tight
I cried
Until I passed out
On that bathroom floor
And I still dreamed of you
Finding me
Way down here
I still felt you
And though I know
I have to let go
Just know
I must've held on to you
Until the very end