Untitled confusion

Living like this is hard Like im tryin to find my way in the dark Having this is worse then u can imagine When i loss control who knows wat will happen Walking on the boarderline while tryin to figure out who iam Deep Emotions n dark thoughts is wat clouds your days Wishing sometimes praying it would all just go away You fill your heads with thoughts of what it would b like to b one of the normal sort ,Really must be nice being able to live a simple life Feels like somethiings always missing anxiety always got me trippen Abandonment issues will always b apart of my life to be able to fully trust someone would b nice Nobody really knows what is like to never feel secure never feel at home never feel at ease never not worried never in control Spiriling day to day living this way Always feeling angry never know y no matter how hard i try these feeling are always filling me up inside Y isnt there any answers for us who are Grouped in the boarder line zone Yes i have a problem yes i think its big i really need to get better for my kids Who is there to turn to who will understand whats its like living with personality disorders that ppl call boarderline.