Unwanted friendship

I know many people but only consider some my friends why? well because of people like you who pretend to be my friend but then do dumb things friends shouldn’t do. Honestly you can’t call everyone your friends you can’t trust everyone because even the people you call your closest friends have said things about you and done things behind your back. You say you’re tired of trying what? Pretty funny because when I would try you no longer did and once I stopped trying, you would throw yourself a pity party, one thing I hate is when people throw themselves a pity party trying to pretend like they’re the victim. I’m not the bad guy I tried if it wasn’t good enough for you then that’s on you but for me it was good enough and I no longer will change for you nor for anyone else so don’t make it seem like if I’m the one who just left. Like my best friend says “people leave for a reason and they’re always a lesson” and my lesson from you was that people like you aren’t worth my time cause neither you or I are the victim in this we were both friends once and the friendship failed but don’t point fingers blaming the other person when you yourself also had a blame in it, just like it was your fault it was also mine. I have loved and lost quite a few times in my life, and I am not going to take all the blame. Not again. So, yes. I'll admit, I made some mistakes in our friendship, but, as they say, it does take two .Throughout this year not only have I figured out who you truly are but I figured out who I am and what I want in life, and who I want as friends and surely it isn’t you anymore. I may have lost you but I gained someone better and I don’t regret putting her first. I have a great friend who I met in middle school, she’s amazing and something that I like about her is that no matter what she’ll be honest even if she knows it’s not the answer I want to hear, she has my back always and protects me. I can honestly say that I would choose her over and over again than any other friend or ex friend because although we have a couple months talking again she’s showed me so much more to the world, she’s changed me and taught me to put myself above you and above others because I am my own person and I come first. We spend hours together and try to annoy of one another, you can say our friendship is weird, we have our random moments were we can be rude to each other but we don't get mad about it. She appreciates me for who I am and I appreciate her for who she is, she has taught me to love myself and that I should put myself above others because at the end of the day it’s my life and half the people in it right now aren’t going to be there 2 or 3 years from now. My best friend has given me hope that all the struggles right now will get better they’ll go away and I’ll finally be okay . She’s been a blessing in my life, she’s proven to me since the first day that she actually cares. I have learned many things by her side, and most importantly I have become more independent than i was before. I’d choose her over you anytime.