USED TO

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Australia

I used to want you, I used to need you
I used to think you had everything I needed
I used to love you, I used to breathe you
I used to think you had everything I needed
Thought that I'd be safe with you
'Til you put your hands on me
Used to hang onto every word you were saying
When you used 2 call to tell me that you loved me
Turns out you've got a hollowed out heart
Turns out that I was wrong
I was so wrong about you
What a fool I was to think that you could change
I was young, didn't know what I know now
I lost my grip and watched it all fall apart.

Turns out you had nothing at all to give me
All you ever gave to me
was
Heartache and pain, the misery you caused
When I was all alone in my room
I cried for you
A million tears fell to the hardwood floor
I'd cry a million more but you would never care.

Thought that I'd done something wrong
So ashamed of the way it has come to be
It ripped a hole right through my heart
Loneliness became my only friend
And misery kept me company
Even through all my darkest nights
I've never felt so lonely as I do right now
But I don't like it no, I don't like this loneliness
I'm feeling, deep inside I'm going through
This secret hell, it scares me to death.

Stuck in this secret silence, silent tears
Faced with fears, feels like I can't win
Voices saying that I'll never win, to just give in
And, everyday I'm crying out
but
You don't see it, that my heart aches
And breaks for you
For a chance to say, hey! I love you
How do you do? but.

But, every time that I'm crying
I'm hoping you'd see me and
Come running on home
Back to me, back into my heart and arms
But your not there to hold me
To kiss away the pain, you're so far away now
And, I don't know how to find you
Where is your heart?, where is your heart?
I don't know how to turn this thing around.

I used to want you, I used to need you
I used to think you had everything I needed
I used to love you, I used to breathe you
I used to think you had everything I needed
Thought that I'd be safe with you
'Til you put your hands on me
Used to hang onto every word you were saying
When you used 2 call to tell me that you loved me
Turns out you've got a hollowed out heart
Turns out that I was wrong
I was so wrong about you
What a fool I was to think that you could change
I was young, didn't know what I know now
I lost my grip and watched it all fall apart.

Nothing hurts more than
The pain of not having you here by my side
Nothing hurts more than to hear you say
That you don't love me no more
Told me that I was the
Biggest mistake you ever made
I cried cause it hurt me, hurt me so bad
I cry for you every night as I lay down
I cry for you every night as I close my eyes
And fall asleep to the sound of the rain
Falling down outside my window.

I keep going over and over and over in my mind
yeah,I keep asking it over and over and over again
Why don't you love me?, Why don't you love me?
I'm longing for these broken bridges to mend
Why can't you see me? I'm waiting for you to call

Hopeless, worthless
It's how I have been feeling
Because you don't love me, you never did
Even though I still love you
Even though I still want you
Nothing more just you.

I used to want you, I used to need you
I used to think you had everything I needed
I used to love you, I used to breathe you
I used to think you had everything I needed
Thought that I'd be safe with you
'Til you put your hands on me
Used to hang onto every word you were saying
When you used 2 call to tell me that you loved me
Turns out you've got a hollowed out heart
Turns out that I was wrong
I was so wrong about you
What a fool I was to think that you could change
I was young, didn't know what I know now
I lost my grip and watched it all fall apart.

This poem is about: 
Me
My family

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