Used to (Still) Love You

Cry with me, sky

because I don't see these tears stopping.

Another day passes

and the branding of you on my mind burns.

My heart was yours innocently:

giggles burrowed in my sleeve

tender hugs

looking at you and only you...

My body became yours quickly:

my first kiss and first time simultaneous

thoughts raging to stop but hands moving, moving

and lips and bodies colliding...

It carried into summer blissfully:

Ignorance, sneakiness

not myself, not yourself

but you found someone else.

You left me for her 

and three months later the tables turned.

But you've branded me with your charming

sultry smirk, snarky words, beautiful body.

It burns my mind when my tears fall

and thoughts of you consume me.

It's complicated because you'll always be the dear friend

I used to (still) love.