Utopia

Its still like yesterday when you suddenly appeared my way

You were there oblivious of me and what my gut had to say

This is too good to be true

however my heart my wife it wanted you to be

the pragmatic analyst  in me knew this is how you stupid

And then you were gone

no name just a memory

A memory that just wouldn’t fade

On the day I saw you my heart I betrayed

And then began the search  

eventually a name  emerged

90 days on I was at your door

Under false pretences to start a rapport

But with falsehood came uncertainties

And a chance with you I never got.

You are doomed when your gut and the universe conspires against you

Coz I walked with my head held low

Only to be told that my presence, an effect it had bestowed

What manner of madness, I came for you

And now you wanted to know me.

My gut feeling must have been right

The magnet that draws people together

a mystery even an analyst cannot decipher.

Now you are sitting across the table from me

 And I could tell my gut was certainly right

Cause now my head, you, it began to admire

Our ideologies our plans too similar to ignore

And God, were you beautiful

In my excitement I broke the one cardinal rule

Never give all your heart!

Cause now I was naked

The good, the bad, the ugly all at your feet

And you focused on the bad.

Forgetting the impermanence of any moment

Overlooking that where I was

Wouldn’t be where I will always be.

Another 90 days down the road

Here I am 21 days away from the bad

And yet you still seem so far

The good place that cannot be

The utopian story of us.