v a l i d

why cant i be fine by myself 

without the validation 

fostered love

from temporary soulmates

i'll never understand 

myself

my pain

it's all consuming 

everything sets me off

but especially him 

and him 

and 

i cant ever admit 

my inability 

independence

defines me 

ive always been "strongest"

yet reality 

here

im so weak

dependent

free in chains

chained by a mind

sculpted by pains

no one to blame 

no finger to point

its just me

so let me be

but please

never leave...