Vacancy

You open with your words but you don't show it within your actions You Know that I forgave you so why you steady asking I L-O-V-E Y-O-U But the question remains anonymous because the pain you put me through No point in frustrating over things you don't no and No time to relate in feelings you don't show Twelve years went by without a phone call or a visit Never knew what was wrong til I realized it was mommy I was missing I've done everything to leave memories where they lie but its a brutal battle that I'm fighting and my heart is racing from the laps I keep repeating No telling whether the pain will be leaving I understand you love the taste of a crack pipe but I wonder if you love me Cause reminiscing on the times you wasn't there I don't know what to believe I'm breaking through barriers hoping it would lead to a happy ending Knowing it won't cause you wasn't there in the beginning "Only if you was there..." keeps running through my mind But I accept the past and leave pain behind But somehow my heart is still vacant Wondering if the emptiness I took for granted was mistaken Even though the void is still within I realized that the pain is a good friend Cause what don't kill me make me stronger and my strength will last much longer But I do wish you were there for me and this desire is nothing but an enemy Cause it causes more pain and your heart remains vacant so looking for love will leave me in shame