Value-Zero

One

Two

Three

Four

I popped the calories in like the medication I use to numb my pounding headaches,, The 

headaches caused 

when I skip the meals my mother prepares or when I go days without eating .

You will not find a single crumb on my lips, only when I take the plunge and dive into 

worlds of numbers and calculations during the days of my everlasting disease of 

Eat

Eat 

Eat

and

When I finally realized I just ruined my hard work of 2 months, I run, faster than I will

In the physical education, I am forced to take, faster than I ever will when I go on my

special runs to get rid of any remains,, I run to the bathroom,, lock the door, turn on the

sink and stick the disgustingly cold fingers down my throat, and the problem is...it will

continue,, between me being a simple teen and "just trying to find myself out"I will always

be looked at like the fat girl who wants attention, the number on the scale doesn't just 

represent the weight I am,, it represents my self-value,, I will value myself when that

number reaches the zero, until im nothing left but skin and bone,, until im nothing.