Vented Emotions

I feel so numb

I feel so dumb

the stressors I have are small as a crumb

but I react to them all as if there were more than one

I cant feel the pain becuase I've gotten so used to the struggle

and now I have trust issues and cant let anyone inside my bubble

I love everyone but I never get that back

I try to be friendly and caring but I end my day with a heart attack

people never see how much I truly care 

and they hear my name just about everywhere

I walk the halls like a stranger to the place I live in

and all the negative comments and accusations

shit, im started to believe it

I see this world like a blind man

becuase I cant see what everyone else sees 

and all I can do use my feelings the best I can

but sometimes my senses fail me

and my emotions go crazy like a child that started wailing

and my mental state is failing

and I just wish someone out there would come and save me