Void

The void in my chest. 
yes, yes I know this one.

it's been a friend to me for years, one of the best.

one I could never shove away

one I could never get rid of 

a companion to the very end. 
the void that I believe one day 

will surely eat me alive. 
staring into the dark is staring into myself

a version of myself I choose to not believe 

maybe it's insanity 

doing the same thing over and over hoping for a change 

maybe it's just the way I heard my name 

calling out into the void. 
but I hope you're okay

i think about you every now and then old friend.

doing things that were for the best may have not been what I wanted.

may have been what I needed.

thought for so long you were the answer to my own void.

it's okay you never wanted to be.

expectations, unspoken 

some things are best left unsaid. 
but I know your name, maybe that's enough for you to never leave my mind.