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i was in a car once 

legs spread out

on top of a lover. 

i looked into his eyes and saw

so much more than lust.

we breathed together 

what is more beautiful than this. 

we breathed together i 

do not have words for this i 

was alone,

in a furred, gray bed 

sweating underneath 

the weight of my desire 

trying to make up for the lack 

of him 

within me 

reduced to nothing but

painful want. 

god

i’m so empty—-

lord– 

lord! 

do i want you

that is all i have to say.