WAIT.

Wait 

For  

Me. 

I'd faintly scream 

aimlessly trying 

gasping for air 

In this ominous ocean 

Drifting 

       Drowning 

               Deeper 

Slowly 

        Sinking 

                Suddenly 

Suddenly, 

The weight of this world 

Is too hard to hold 

When you can barely 

Force your diaphragm 

To rise up  

and fall back down 

Stuff your lungs with air 

And let it go. 

Out your mouth 

Up through your nose. 

Or so I was told. 

I was told 

If I don’t learn to move, 

Hit the ground running 

I'll never know, 

Never comprehend  

This life 

So, I guess they were right. 

Because I tend to wander, 

Let myself loose at night 

Why is it I'm so filled with fright? 

Are there truly golden gates 

And dainty flowers 

Guarding the end of this fight? 

I don’t get it 

This endless war  

I put up with the things in my head 

Battling between the strings in my heart 

My God how did I get this far. 

I'm still young  

Yet falling apart 

People only notice  

when things go bad 

Ignoring when it's alright 

Maybe that’s why it's so hard 

For us to realize 

It's not a simplistic fight 

Beneath the skin, 

Within the flesh. 

And we won't win this war 

With our backs to the door 

It's more a singing in the rain 

Kind of game. 

Cast away our hearts 

And come home with pebbles in our pockets 

Chasing happiness is like 

Putting in your all and getting a fraction 

I want more out of myself 

But can't push anymore 

We've lost sight of hope 

Yet long for the better. 

  -C.D.