Waiting

I wish it didn't happen 

I wish it didn't happen

Yet it did

It's a weird thing isn't it, How you can wish for something to happen

but at the sametime don't

I have been waiting so long to hear but when it came I wish it didn't because

I knew it wasn't right...

So I'm here regretting that moment but also cherishing it 

I can't explain the way besides saying there's pain

I get the pain from love, yet I get it from no love

I don't understand why I get this way, I guess I'll never get what I deserve

Unless this is what I deserve

I'm still not sure in this world but I know one thing is certain

I can't live without you but I need to and it kills me 

Because I know I need to let you go but yet I'm addicted to you like you're a drug

If I don't have you I'm nothing but also with you I'm not me

I'm here regretting decisions I made

If I just made you realize what you're doing to me

Maybe then you wouldn't have said it 

Maybe then you would've apologized and said that You Love Me

Insteade of Hate Me.