Want?

Who are you hurting with every decision you're making? Do I really want to stay, have I made the right choice in this? I don't know, I have hurt her with this decision, I know I have whether he cares to admit it or not. I can see it in her eyes, I can hear it in her voice and I can see it in her songs. When I walk with her, when I talk to her and look her straight in the eyes why can I not tell her how much I care. How much I want her to tell me the truth so I can look her in the eyes and say once again that everything is going to be alright and I will always be here even if my decisions are wrong and send me rolling down the wrong path. With every action you make there is a consequence that you may not see, but you keep pushing through any way because you don't want to see the damage you've done. Why can't this just end? Why me? These questions keep going around in my mind but I can't seem to answer them. We fight and argue, but in the end we end up okay again and back to flirting and having those romantic conversations. When he says to you that you should forget his existence it shouldn't make you happy. It didn't make me happy but at the same time is this a sign that we shouldn't be together and that no matter how many times we date it will never work? How do you know when they're not face to face saying it to you? What if he's just having a bad day like you? Maybe he didn't mean it... That still doesn't make it okay.