Was it not enough

I allowed my walls to come down, I allowed myself to care, To care about you, To love you. I allowed myself to smile, To show my happiness The happiness I got when I... When I was with you. I allowed myself to let go, To be myself. After years of hiding. I felt cold when I was with you Without you I felt broken, Like I am only half of a whole. Was it not enough Enough to say, to say I love you, Enough to say I tried. I would have jumped in front of a bullet for you. I gave you my heart, My heart that has been blocked off, Off from the world behind the ice and iron chains. You were the only one I saw. The only one who knew the real me. You were the one , The one who saved me countless times from just giving up, And ending it all. You pulled me from my grave. You lost all faith in our burning light. With our knives and pens we made our plight But you used those knives to destroy my heart To destroy my loyalty.