We Don't Talk Anymore
We don’t talk anymore.
It’s really just that.
You left for a day,
Then you entirely went away
And we didn’t talk much anymore.
We didn’t talk almost at all.
We spent two years trying
To make one another a safe haven
Then you turned your back after
Graduation day, and you went away.
I wanted to talk,
But you had work
And it wore you down to your core
And all I could do
Was say “goodnight” and “I love you.”
I missed talking to you.
I did, really, I waited hours
To talk to you, but
I couldn’t help you were
Always exhausted from working there.
I gave up talking to you.
I was too tired of staying up
To the late A.M.s to only put you
To bed and repeat again and again.
I just started going to bed.
We didn’t hang out much anymore.
Our schedules stopped matching,
And events just weren’t gonna be happening.
So I decided I needed to start something new,
Something that didn’t involve you.
I made new friends.
I thought they would stay until the end
But I was wrong and they’re long gone
And I hope they never come back.
I wish I never did that.
You didn’t like my new friends.
Especially the boy and I found it funny,
But maybe I should’ve listened to you
Cause he wanted a honey from me
I wouldn’t let him receive.
We stopped talking for awhile then.
Cause I stopped being special, too,
So I figured you weren’t really loving me anymore
And it broke me to my core,
But that was fine.
I had 11 months of this “game”
We had made.
You were already gone before
Those words rang true,
And it stopped feeling like “I love you.”
You kept crying and crying.
You wouldn’t stop, and you begged me
To give you a second chance, but my love,
There’s something you’ve ditched for 11 months
And it was done.
I gave you back your things.
All the stuffed toys and hoodies,
And some of the CDs.
We cried a lot, but you tricked me
Into saying we could be.
I waited again, somewhat.
I waited and tried to keep us alive
Through a friendship first so I
Wouldn’t be so hurt and then it showed through
You weren’t going to prove “I love you.”
Then you stopped talking to me,
And I didn’t understand why.
Was your tears and pleading just some big lie?
Was it because you couldn’t look at me
Cause of what we couldn’t do?
Was it because you couldn’t say “I love you”?
I decided to keep my word
Instead of breaking first.
I kept texting you morning, noon, and night
Just to make sure you were alright.
I didn’t lie, you know.
I kept texting and texting
To make sure you drank water and ate,
That you made it to work and home safe.
You’d leave me on read and
We didn’t talk much anymore.
You wouldn’t talk to me anymore.
You sent people who had no business
To settle a rumor you feared.
Was I really that disgusting
That you could be that insincere?
I gave up on you.
I finally did, and I can’t tell you
How much it hurt, too.
My friends hunted you down
To prove to you there wasn’t another
“I love you.”
We don’t talk anymore
And I fell in love with someone new
And honestly forgot about you.
You were a tool to help him and I survive
He was the reason I made it alive.
Him and I talk all the time,
And I finally feel like someone is mine.
He’s my world and the truth is
I’ve found someone who means
Way more than you.
You message me from time to time,
But you’re never on my mind.
You’re a wreck, a mess, horribly depressed,
But I am happy, alive, and all I have done
Without you is thrive.
I felt guilty
For being happy while you were not,
But like you said, old lover,
It’s not my fault
And I have another.
You messaged me again one night
To talk like friends almost
And it was quite alright.
You told me about your plan
To escape the world.
I told you mine,
And I’m sure it hurt.
We stopped talking again.
Just again and again
And I don’t crave to speak to you.
I really never want to see you.
I’m sorry that’s true.
I got accepted the other day
To the college I wanted
I’ve made it this far without
A single bit of help from you since
And I am full of pride.
You messaged me the other night
Wishing I’d go away and probably die.
You can’t take not getting over it
And that you can’t blame me
For pitying.
I changed my picture
So you’d get the hint
That there is no more you
And there is only
Him.
I don’t talk to you anymore.
You’re not worth my time and my life,
You chose to walk and go away.
So please, don’t pretend like
This was everything you had.
A boy told me once
That people change their minds,
But never overnight.
I’ve accepted you changed your mind
Over an 11 month time.
I’m happy with my life.
I’m in love with the stars and the moon again
And a boy the sweetest that can be.
May I tell you the truth once again?
I’m sure he’s the one for me.
Sorry, sweetie.