What a 2016

2016, the year that became a personified terror
(I lost track of the present a couple of times)

I finished college last year (FINALLY) but I was lost
(I went back to school)

I applied for a loan, my first loan
(I left my first job)

I had good health
(I lost some Fafsa to pay for school health care)

I gathered my wits
(I finished and published my first book)

I consistently felt a failure
(I failed in an aspect of my would-be career)

but I kept getting up
(I passed my fall classes above average)

I had almost lost all hope
(but I'm still job searching)

I thought nothing I did ever mattered
(I'm still working on side projects...
somehow hoping for the best)

I thought that nothing I felt or did made a difference
(but my mother and friends listened)

and here I am
(older than the past year)

and here I am
(hopeful in the new year)

What a 2016
(I'm optimistic, 2017)