What

What do you do when you realize you can't help yourself?

What do you do when you realize you hurt someone?

I used to think that I'd never see the sun, and when I did, I almost regretted it. Sometimes, I would cry to myself, regretting my choices. I hurt people. . . all with a smile on my face.

I'm cruel, they say

I'm heartless, they say

They are all right. . .

What do you do when they all turn against you?

What do you do when they all fade from your grasp?

You learn to say Fuck You

You learn to notice when people are faking

I learned to fake a smile so I wouldn't have people worry about me. They all laughed and I learned to not care. Will I ever care, I don't know. But as of now, My only question is 

WHAT