What About Now?

Too out of focus 
and out of reach 
I am what you 
will not seek 
A hopeless 
being with 
no purpose 
I stand to 
correct and 
sit when 
questioned 
I can't see 
through the 
darkness 
It is too 
dark to 
see 
How do you 
explain seeing 
darkness in the 
day, when they 
are unafraid?
I will not 
speak 
I cannot 
gesture 
towards 
something 
that only I 
can see
Will you walk 
with me, if I released 
myself out into the open? 
I can't get myself to move,
to speak, to focus, to laugh, 
to feel, or to be what I once 
was, would you love me now,
now that you know all that you 
have lost, could you love me now?