What can happen in a second?

I felt as if the world stopped and shattered. I felt a pang of regret and sadness. I didn't regret being here with you or telling you that I care about you. I regret the way it happened. it was quiet and there was a brisk breeze coming from the windowsill. Through this I realized I felt numb inside. I know we were never meant to be but I often wondered why we ended up holding each other numerous nights. it wasn't winter but I felt the bitterness puncture me. I acquired a taste for it's bite. I realized that I have feelings for you that I cannot mask behind these eyes. I request that you stay with me for the rest of the nights I lie awake thinking about what it's going to take to get you. you told me you're a mess and that you can't trust but you continue to lust for me in the early morning hours. this all happened within a second, for the second time.