What can i do

What can I do? What am I ment to do? What can I say? All I bring down is a curse and dismay. I feel like shit every single day and nothing I can do or say. I feel like skum I feel so dumb I feel so numb but there's nothing that I can say or do that's gonna help me and my mood. You say you're going to step up and try more. But all I can see is dust on the floor. You never hold me or want anything from me unless I ask and everytime I feel like i have to put on an emo mask. Hide my feelings hide my shit because no one can handle me just hit the switch. Turn me off turn me down turn me around and all you are is a dumb fucked clown. Not a funny clown not a phyco clown but a clown that always bring shit around him down. I feel like i do try. I feel like I do heaps but in everyone's eyes I do shit. I do nothing. I am nothing. I'm just skum and here's me thinking I'm number one. Well I'm not. I'm not even number two unless you're talking about shit then it's true. I feel like i can't even ask for sex. I feel like I'm not even aloud to get horny I feel like i only get anything if you're happy to do so. I feel so dumb I feel so numb and my girl just thinks I'm only wanting to fuck. Well yeah I do but not only fuck. Cuddles kisses love but no luck. It just gets thrown back into my face then you think that all I want. What disgrace that I am. What kind of man I am. Sometimes I don't even feel like a man. Sometimes I just feel like dirt like nothing like maybe I should have been born with a pussy then at least my little bitch status would work.