what He wants (what does he want?)

10:40pm

(10/12/2019)

are you sure that nothing’s growing ?

because my moods don swung

and you give me your science

but wanna throw dirt on my God

on who ?

i stepped back.

my brain’s wanting one thing,

but at the randomest times,

my brain will think of another reason.

and so many people said no

but if it’s blooming, i have no other choice but to love it

but not you.

never you.

but i can’t do that because that’s not what my God said.

and that’s not what He wants.

and right now,

i’m not even sure what i want.

do i want peace,

patience ?

i don’t know what i want other

than to not be feeling like my emotions are controlling me.

ion like the way i feel.