What I feel

Its been many years and counting I have tried to move beyond boundaries Looking for that person that gives my heart so much unrest The reason my heart beats I am so much perplexed I have spent so many year trying to love But as always everything gets rough It wasn't supposed to get so messy Its so sad this are things that should interest me I have found it difficult to relate Why what i feel is always not up-to-date Why I feel so cursed with how It feels I wonder if anyone also ever feel the chills Its been many years and counting I have moved beyond boundaries Looking to understand what I feel Or perhaps someone who also feel the chill