What I Never Said

You are a monster

I hope you know

Because I will never have

The courage to tell you to your face.

The way you look at other women

And do not care that she sees.

The way you insult her left and right

Yet do not bother with remorse.

The way you push her and hurt her

Because you need to feel powerful.

The way you ignore the fact

That she is the only one who has ever truly loved you

Because you harm those who love you.

And the fact that you show me the true you 

And act the way you do

Without caring that you are my father

The one who is supposed to protect me

From the world 

But I guess it makes sense

Because the only one I really need protecting from

Is you.

I can take on the world

But not because I am your daughter

And you raised me right

No.

But because you have shown me that the world 

Does not want you to prosper

Which has only made me more determined

To be unafraid 

In my journey to see the beauty in the world.

So I will hide my scars 

And my tears.

I will pull myself up by my bootstraps.

I will ignore the pain

The trauma

The heartache

The worthless feeling

The sadness

Which you have forced upon me

And instead, I will prove you wrong

For I am worth something.

Everyone is

And it is not for you to say what someone is 

And is not

But I will say what I am and am not

And I will be

Remarkable

Empathetic

Strong

Independent

Lionhearted

Enthusiastic

Naturalistic

Trustworthy

And totally

And utterly

ME

Just me

If one can say 

Just light

And

Just hope

And

Just a change in the world

The world

That needs a change so badly.

I will remember my past

And I will remember you 

father

But

I 

Will

Never

Let you hold me back

Or let you hurt me 

Again

Because

Every

Single

Time

I fall,

I get up stronger 

And brighter.

Yes, I am broken

But yet I am unbreakable

And we must all be a little broken

For how else how would the light get in?

Thank you dear old dad

For showing me the very worst of the world

So now I can run towards the unknown

And find everything else

Which is no doubt greater than all you have shown me.

I will never be trampled again.

My only 

Wish

Is that my mother would leave you

However,

I know that is the last thing she would ever do

And so I will leave you

And never look back

But I will pray every day for her

The woman

So kind the monster could not break her.