What i used to be

Im cold 

My hearts not working its not pumping my blood 

My heart is shattered into all these tiny little pieces that when i bend down to try to pick them up they just cut me up instead 

Whats going on up there inside your head they ask 

All i can give you is a blank stare while im lost in the abyss of what i used to be. 

God whats going on with me im lost in a sea of misery ,im drowning ,in what i used to be. 

What was i before it was you an me i cant remember a god damned thing 

It just burns your eyes to think about everything you had just being ripped away in the tide

Just makes you want to burry urself under the covers and die 

You have to get up 

Survive another long day 

Find who you used to be because this definitely isn't you or who you're meant to be

I just need a moment to grieve at the life i used to live

It will never leave my mind 

I don't want it to its a part of who i am 

An entire chapter that i would never change 

Never erase 

No one knows what will be written in there book of life as the chapters go by 

You keep living day after day 

U may have another chapter close to the last 

Maybe you will repeat your past 

No one really knows how life goes 

Just keep on living 

See how it goes