What If?

What if I wasn't the person you perceive me to be and think I am? That I can do and accomplish anything that you don't think I can? Seeing the outside but not in, Seeing only a happy face because of a grin? What if I've been to the unbearable places? When I close my eyes and still can see the looks on their faces? Feeling inside, like I am the only one who can help? Being awaken from the way she felt, my mother indeed, a distinct yelp? What if i could help then, and become a friend Or could I just have walked away from... Them... Forever? I would be free, they could deal with each other, But I didn't, I was a man in making and had to help my mother What if I told you that I was pretty much a momma's boy? That I LOVE my mother more than a desert kid loves a lama toy? What if I could recite to you every word, every place, every face, every action? What if I could tell you what happened and then told you my reaction? What if this charm and this smile was hiding the hurt inside for a while? That this little guy had to step in and help... Yes, a child. What if I could leave you off telling you I went through it all, facts, fiction, and the myths. What if I went through depression, hurt, agony, deprivation, negligence, and abandonment, What If?here)