What If

What if you

Didn’t exist

I’ll tell you what would happen

I would be completely fine

Not dying inside not feeling the way I do

Because let me tell you I feel like trash that you

Just stepped over first and then went back

and kicked just to make a huge disgusting  mess

I have felt this for way too long and now I’m moving on and leaving

You because you are the main reason for my sadness and depression

For you are the only thing that is holding me back and screwing me over

I am not going to take it anymore I have had it with this garbage this

Stupidity that is called friendship because where I’m from you

Never ever, ever backstab a person so hard that it feels real

You never ever throw someone so far off the tracks that you

Really feel thrown because that is what you did to me

You made me feel incredible

Incredibly stupid

You made me feel unbelievable

Unbelievably vulnerable

You made me feel inconceivable

Inconceivably moronic

You are the reasons I feel the way I feel you made me feel all these things

Just by not looking or talking or even waving to me I feel so overwhelmed

When I decide to say hi in the halls or talk to you on the chat

You did all this while not looking back or feeling something wrong you just

Decided to walk away as if I was invisible \

As if I were nothing at all

As if I was just

A pile of

Trash you kicked and made a mess of

So ya what if

What if you were in my shoes would you like it

No, I don’t think you would

So much for what if