What If

people dont understand i wake up and feel drained i dont want to get out of bed i dont want to turn on the light i dont want to wake up and socialize people i see on the daily they look at me and laugh and point and condemn me without knowing me without knowing the person i am they heard a rumor they heard a story they heard a lie and they assume but they dont know assumptions arent facts assumptions lack tact lack reality because i am not an assumption i am a person i am the only one who knows me i am the only one who knows the facts but those assumptions make me feel dreadful they make me look at the mirror and feel appalled at what i see what if people do understand what if i deserve the drained feeling in the morning not wanting to get out of bed not wanting to illuminate my room not wanting to wake up and socialize what if i am the one that doesnt understand who i really am what if the rumor is true what if the story wasnt a lie what if