What I'll Never Have The Courage To Say

To my father, my mother

My grandma, my little brother

Thank you for believing in me,

When I am too blind to see

I often can’t believe that I’m actually here.

Sometimes I feel so weak,

I’m constantly consumed with fear.

Constantly on the brink,

Of destruction, I collapse on myself.

Set standards too high but i’ll never beg for help

Because in my brain I need to be stronger,

But sometimes I can’t hold it any longer.

I feel like a failure,

But there you are,

You’re there for me when I’m at my lowest.

I’ll always try to not be a burden and you know this.

You know when I’m mad or upset.

Taught me to be a kind person,

To help others and yet,

It’s nothing compared to what you all do for me.

You guide me home when I’m lost at sea.

I know I’m a mess.

You guys make me want to be better for you

So that one day I may make you all proud.

I look back and see all the things I’ve been through,

And you are always in the picture .

I know I don’t show it often,

But I love you all so much.

The only goal in my life, is to see you all happy.

God, when did I get all sappy?

I don’t know if I’ll ever have the courage

To show you how much you all mean to me but know this,

I’m not the best person but I’ll do what I can

Because you already do so much for me and accept me for who I am.