WHAT LIFE CAN GIVE ME

It's confusing at this point in life, what it really means to be happy?

Constant tears? or a pretence?

I can't close my eyes

I'm scared of what darkness will do to me

My inner self is deteriorating

My mental health is deteriorating

I hide behind an unbothered life , pretending to care less about anything

Why do i came out as toxic?

Maybe my defense mechanism the weapon of my destruction

Where do i find inner peace?

How do i console myself?

I feel the weight on me

I feel like I'm being suffocated

How do i organise my life to be on the right path?

I can't find answers to the numerous questions I ask

I hope someone hears my silent cry

And come help me

Till then, i will keep to myself and wait for what life can give me