What Options Do I Have?

What options do I have? I searched for a love that made sense I searched for an understanding to life I searched for myself but realized I am not from earth or heaven I am not from the grass or sky I am not fire or water Not from books did I learn Not from sitting back did I understand Not from scoring did I realize I had to seek but I had not yet sought And love for what? Time became an essence Love for the one thing that made sense in this corrupted world Love for the beauty of this Love That Lovers can relate to this one soul That learning only happens by falling over And getting back up By losing the ball in such green grass, then to run after it And reclaim what is yours And obtain such confidence to dribble and take risks against your enemy And to unselfish yourself by passing this Love to your brothers And to go after this Love and eventually accomplish your goal and score To be free and innocent while you run restlessly amongst your brothers To discover who you are on the field is who you are off the field If one day in my life I spend a moment without this Love This Love that only makes sense in life What options do I have?