What is PTSD?

It is forgetting what day it is

It is forgetting you had an appointment

today because you lose track of time

It is writing down important things but

They don’t stay in your memory for long

It is striving to put everything together

Almost reaching the part where you got the job

Done, then finding out you missed a few things

It is going to class late and not turning in homework

Your life is in slow motion

Goals feel far away

Time has you trapped

You worry about the next minute, next hour, next day

You feel like a failure

Little mistakes enrage you because you want to get it right

You want to be in full control but you don’t have any

It is questioning your worth

Your thoughts

Your feelings

Your words

Your actions

It is losing your motivation

It is feeling small compared to your challenges

Everything is a challenge

Everything is a test

Constantly blaming yourself for the past and present

Self sabotage

It is going outside and not knowing where you parked

It is feeling rejected and being excluded

It is infinite thoughts beating you, like physical pain

It is your mind bringing up the verbal abuse

Of so many years

It literally flips your entire world upside down

Things don’t seem the same as before

It is feeling disconnected

It is questioning if you’re being logical

Or whether it's all disoriented

Its questioning if others see like I do

It is being afraid of self expression

And putting out your real personality

For everyone to watch

It is trying not to upset or offend anybody