What Would It Be Like

What is normal

I most certainly don't know

I have never been, 

Nor will I ever be,

Normal

Sometimes

When things get bad

I wonder what it must be like,

To be normal

Even if its just for one day

One soletary day of my life

What would it be like

To wake up, without a headache

To get out of bed, without my body aching

To write an essay, without my hands shaking

To not have to worry about what and when I've eaten

What would it be like, to Feel

To smile and have it reach my soul

To laugh and not be faking it

To take off this mask of "I'm Fine"

To have full emotions,

Not shadows of what was

What would it be like 

To not be Me