Whats worse

what's worse? Having to set up for a Christmas party or hosting a party your parents were supposed to throw? what's worse? seeing your mother sobbing hysterically or keeping yourself from doing so? What's worse? Having to deal with a sister in denial or another happily eating her christmas beef? what's worse? being told your father has a rare case of cancer or watching him go through grief? what's worse? having to wrap your own presents or having the big one opened in public on Christmas day? what's worse? dreading the next one because you dont know how long or hoping he does so he wont be in so much pain? please tell me what's worse?