since when did love become a sin

when i was little my heart was so full of love 

i loved everything and everyone 

i was kind to all and always cared 

but now that i'm older the love that i feel has turned itself around

and made me hate myself 

i was ten when i found out what being gay was 

but was told that it was wrong 

i was told it was a sin 

i was told that it wasn’t allowed 

so when i thought i liked a girl 

i pushed those feelings down 

i tried my hardest 

to throw them away 

but they kept getting stronger 

each and every day 

i dated a boy 

but it didn’t feel right 

i thought to myself well if im bi 

i could possibly still have “a normal life”

i tried to ignore the feelings that were inside

but they were too strong 

and i didn’t want to hide 

i no longer push the feelings away 

i've accepted them 

but at what cost 

i'm out to all my friends 

and random strangers too 

but my family

no 

i don’t know what they’ll do 

will they be happy

i'm not sure 

will they accept me

i have no clue 

what will my church members say 

will they laugh 

or will they cry 

will they say they love me 

or say that i should die 

why was i made this way

and can i make it stop 

no 

sadly i cannot 

i’ve tried 

i’ve prayed to my God above 

to take these feelings away from me 

to strip me of my love 

but that's the thing 

the love i feel is what makes me who i am 

so when did loving someone become a sin