When I pass you right in the halls

When I see you in the halls all I can do is look back to see if you check on me or even notice me. My heart flutters and turns it makes me weak as if I'm about to faint when I turn around all I see is you and your pleasant disguise looking straight back at me. You can act different Infront of others, but we all know you know better than that as I feel like I've known you for forever. I know you're not like that no matter how much you try to make it your whole personality. I see your long hair from afar, but it hurts when you cover it up and act like it doesn't exist when you know it fits you better than anyone else. I will miss the moments where I saw you in me and I knew that we were meant to be. All I can do is hope you soon come back to me and hold me and talk to me just like you used to not the words you say to your friends since you make everything a joke now. I miss who you once were and now it's like I don't even know who I see. I used to see the boy version of me but now that's all I'm trying to return back to me.