When I see you

When I look back at you I see a little girl full of laughter

I see a little girl whose world was given to her at her fingertips by her daddy

I see a little girl who had the best birthdays thrown by her mom

I see a little girl who had a brother just a year behind her who was her sidekick

I see a little girl who loved her nana like she gave her night and day herself

I watched you grow up

You realized everything isn't as perfect as perceived to be

I watched you walk outside to see the death trap at your dads mouth,

But then I also watch you look up to him

You watch him get it together for his family

I seen him put you in the big house you've always dreamed of

Only thing missing was your mom who can't sit still

She's partying while tending to you kids or you guys house is the last thing on her mind

After many days of being out all night you can see the impact on your dad

You can see when it got your dad mad and made him a person he wasn't

He never intended to be distant but it all came from past hurt

He loved you like no other he just couldn't watch you become anything like her

Many days I watched you feel as though you weren't daddy’s little girl

But deep down inside you always knew you were

You always knew you were number one

But what made it confusing was your mom made it fun

What made it fun you ask …

She bought you what you wanted

Anything to keep you quiet about all the long nights that were anything but silent

For you to hear those noises and for her to know you heard without caring

After you told your dad everything took a turn

Not for the worst nor the better

It was a continuous cycle until about one mid November

November-when you realized it was enough and it's time to go

You weren't being disobedient you just knew it was your time to grow

Your father who you believed was always against you

Was always on your side of the court

Till this day him and god have protected and guided you through this journey

There is so much more I could tell you

I just cant watch you relive all the hurt you've been through

Just remember everything happens for a reason

And god is always on your side