When I’m Gone(song lyrics)

ive tried to break up out these chains 

But i cant shoulder all this pain 

A greater power called my name 

Told me cam dont got to stay 

You can fade away your stories never will alleviate

I cant escape my own thoughts each night interrogated 

Rarely ate or slept for weeks and now my sunshine scared away 

I dont blame a single soul for not having patience to stay 

Now im back to sqaure one no motivation contained 

In my heart i wish to love but all this pain is breeding hate 

Gradually I seal my fate locked away in a breifcase 

For my past ive overpaid and those i trust always betray

my own mind dug my grave i hope i can peacefully lay 

I hope a gentle touch can come erase these tears from my face 

but my hope feeling misplaced as i know im not embraced 

They say ive grown at great rate yet i see no progress made 

happiness i cant portray so many notice its  fake 

dont feel ive got any friends only those that tolerate 

When im gone

dont you cry and dont you worry 

You were not a burden i am just not what this earth need 

Ive been alone alive so whats the difference six feet deep 

The only thing that freed me is stories on this loose leaf 

So when im gone dont you plead for me i found peace 

To the few of you that loved me dont let these tears stream 

When im gone its your smiles that will relieve me 

It wasnt you it was my own mind that defeated me 

When im gone know i didnt give up easily some things just aint meant to be 

And yes i speak regretfully 

when im gone remember me through the stories i told and the man that i tried to be 

Im truly sorry 

This my last song before my last breath 

The next day i Awake could be my day of death 

It may be selfish but im so fucking desparate for affection 

Depression hangs over my head and got the skies crowded 

With clouds so dark the back of my eyelids too bright  

Thats why im awake through the night 

i pick up my pen and write 

But only her voice made it right i knew i was dependent 

My feelings werent intended but that history been written 

I needed more than a friend but that just couldnt be given 

My anger shouldnt have been driven just for her different intentions 

All my ruined friendships remind me the kid inside me died before he ever lived 

Thats why im shifting my attention to breathless visions 

I dont possess my ambition i only wish to see a coffin 

Fitted perfectly for me to rest in 

My talents not developing they only delay the destined end to this 

When im gone

dont you cry and dont you worry 

You were not a burden i am just not what this earth need 

Ive been alone alive so whats the difference six feet deep 

The only thing that freed me is stories on this loose leaf 

So when im gone dont you plead for me i found peace 

To the few of you that loved me dont let these tears stream 

When im gone its your smiles that will relieve me 

It wasnt you it was my own mind that defeated me 

When im gone know i didnt give up easily some things just aint meant to be 

And yes i speak regretfully 

when im gone remember me through the stories i told and the man that i tried to be 

Im truly sorry