When a new day starts without me.

Dear mum, dear dad
Please don’t cry 
Just know I have done my own bit 
On this earth 
Dear mum, dear dad
I have seen you both suffer 
To raise seven children 
Hoping that they would grow up
To take good care of you
But the reverse is the case
Dear mum, dear dad
I’m sorry to tell you that
I’m running out of reasons
To survive on this earth
I have been dead inside
Nobody notices because no one 
lends an ear to a brother. 
It’s not really their fault 
Because everyone is trying to 
Muddle through in this path called life
Does God really exist?
Is he deaf and he can’t hear us?
Or blind and he can’t see our plights?
Is believing that he exists worthless?
I grew up hearing that life would be better one day
That has become a cliché
Because life ain’t getting any easier 
Dear mum, dear dad
When a new day starts without me
Tell my friends and loved ones
That I appreciate the love they showed to me. 
And for those who pretended to care
Please don’t shed tears 
Because when I was there, you put everything above my reach. 
Dear mum, dear dad
When a new day starts without me
Please don’t cry 
Because all I have wanted for years
Was to be able to die

So I can be free from all my thoughts 
And misery.