When Reality Clicks In

It was a normal day 

Well at least WAS until...

My four year old self found out Daddy was going to be sick forever 

Confused

Thinking medicine is the cure 

Numerous hospital visits and doctor appointments 

This is what I grew up around

I didnt understand, nor comprehend the extent of his illness

No...Not until the summer of 2017

One morning, everything felt different 

My father, crawling to get into the shower 

My mom and I yelling and saying lets go we are taking you in

He resisted 

He is stubborn 

But we didnt give up 

We rushed him in and it all went downhill from there 

He was placed into Isolated Intensive Care Unit 

He was not the same 

I looked at him, all of us covered from head to toe in gowns and masks 

I saw that face, complete defeat 

His skin is flushed, cold to the touch 

Why him God?

Slowly his body went into Sepsis; organ failure. 

Lost, confused and not knowing what to do 

The doctor came in and said something that made me realize this is real 

This life that we are in, this confusing rollercoaster with twists and turns is real

The words came out of the doctors mouth like a sharp knife to our hearts

"If you guys didnt bring him in, he would have passed away."

Its a scary world we live in...love like its all you know.