When you want to do

When you want to do something drastict

but you only do half the move

so much for building a cold hard front

to block everyone away

the only thing that gets me through the pain

I gave it away

shiny and silver in an envelope; to someone who I thought cared 

but I was mistaken

Enduring these feelings, I live in my own personal hell

Where I start to doubt if god's even real

Im at the edge and I look down 

"Do it" my mind whispers out

I swallow the lump thats forming at the back of my throat 

I wipe away the tears 

and I walk away

I'm fighting a fight that I'm destine to loose 

But giving up, I refused to do.