Okay look I get it I’m not where I’m supposed to be

I’m not in a good head space, I’m just not

and because of this other aspects are falling apart

I cry for help but you just care about school and getting me to where YOU want me to go

But see the thing is you’ve never been where I am

and you’re cold and harsh, I don’t like dealing with it,

I shouldn’t be forced to deal with it,

all you care about it my homework and my classes

you will never care about me because in your eyes my classes are all I need

screw mental health right?!

I’m trying so hard to be something and to care, but it seems to catch your attention more when I mess up,

so I just keep messing up

I try to get approval from you but every attempt I make gets tattooed on my face as failure from the one person I don’t want to disappoint

but it seems like the only thing that’ll make you happy is if I get into a prestigious school and end up with a six figure salary

forget my mental stability right?

I don’t know anymore,

I just want it to be done with so I can take a break

I want to enter eternal serenity whatever that may mean

maybe then you’ll finally see me for who I really am, not some figure you hope I’d become