Where to go from here

The secret thoughts they think they know Make me hide my face under the snow Why is it white and so cold? I feel as if this life is appearing kind of old I walk as if I’m okay When all I want is to go away They think that everything is fine But I’m walking on a staggered line What is life after this? I’m breathing in this hallucination bliss Nobody can see me like this Because the world is harmful to things like this What to do when all else fails Can’t grab on to the rails I see myself disappearing fast And all because of my harmful past