Where Have I Gone?

Wasting away. Lost. Lonely. I run at any sign of someone trying to talk me out of my nonsense. I'm so deep within the black that the white seems hideous. Threatening. I've faltered in my faith. I'm a dirty sinner. I'm a walking time-bomb and I can't do anything to change it. I'm sorry I'm so messed up. You guys don't deserve my issues. You deserve a good kid. You say I'm only sixteen and have time to do everything over, but it's not true. I'm done for. Where have I gone? Is it really so far away that I can't find myself? I'm so lost. I can't see. Where am I?! I can't get out! Save me! Help me! What do you mean it's too late? I take everything back. I'm drowning. I can't breathe. Why is everyone walking away? I guess I'm not worth it after all.