Whispers of silence

Fear of admittance, confessions untold, cause for the beatings endured by mind and soul

Poisonous guilts, toxic thoughts, plagued by whispers 

Self hatred, fright, cunning betrayal, stalkers of the night

Supposed friends, comrades, benevolence as guise

Should've known the impending, yet taken by surprise

They're coming, they're here, warning, they're near

Where are they, I wait, fear depreciates

Accepting, door left open, still guarded, I find myself hoping

No hope for savior, no hope for time, rather hope for arrival, quickly now, let vengeance be mine

Days they pass, no visits, scare has ceased, anger's replacement

Furious feelings, yes it's me, though they're not my own, the fury burns through flesh ending on bone

Lonely strolls, darkened roads, followers follow, my path dripping gold

Lights reflectant, path is luminescent, every step and turn, none missed, the eyes upon me stir

Stares, I feel, only question, are they real

Rejection, promises broken, upon my stoop I stand, still smoking

Hot headed is she, hot headed is me, explosive reaction, split personality, call me atom

We are the world, yet nothing at all, down from the high horse, my brothers do fall

Support, no support, continue this mission or to abort

Choice, not my own, nor is it yours, temporary abandonment, until regainment of force

Anonymous, known, these are not of another's doings, I recognize now, they are my own.