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It's true what they say

When you first start starving yourself 

At first you feel the pain 

The hunger strikes 

You go to sleep and forget about it completely 

The next day it gets worse

You smell your moms cooking 

Or you go out and your friends decide to go eat

But you just sit back and feel the hunger strikes 

Your stomach begging you to eat 

But you don't give in

The next day comes upon 

You don't feel anything anymore

You feel numb 

And you don't care

Someone asks you if you want to eat 

You just say no

You forget about the hunger

Your stomach doesn't beg anymore 

It knows you're to stubborn to listen

So it does what it always does

It eats

Not food 

But all the fat you carry on yourself 

And at that point 

You feel successful 

Start losing weight

You slowly 

Start getting obsessed 

With not eating 

With losing weight 

You are now skinny 

But you are stuck in between 

Of life and death

Are you proud of yourself now?

Did you earn what you thought you would earn?

No

Everyone stares at you

Like if you're some freak

Now you feel disappointed 

On yourself 

But since you've already gotten

So obsessed 

With the fact that you don't eat

You keep on doing it

No matter of  

All the people judging you

Slowly 

But surely 

You get closer to your death bed

And when you do

All you can do 

Is lay there

Think about what you did

And why you did it

Was it worth it?

You start to realize 

That it was a mistake 

That you want to take it all back

That you will force yourself to eat again

Even if you feel disgusted by the idea of it

But its to late

You start seeing the light

All you see 

Is 

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